so this sucks. i really thought that i had something good with him. i'm really, really gonna miss chillin with him. i don't know what the hell happened. maybe he is slepeing with somebody else. maybe it got too serious and he freaked. who knows. whatever it is, i guess it doesn't matter. no matter what it is, he's obviously not comin back. i'm pretty upset about it, i feel like crying a lot. but i am not going to let this fuck me up. i need to take advantage of this time to really concentrate on myself. as hard as that might be for me, it's what i really need to do.

this week is crazy busy with homework and stuff, but starting next week some major changes are gonna happen. i hope.