it's a new year. nothing has changed since yesterday. i do, however, feel a new sense of resolve and motivation to do the things i want and need to do in life. this is pretty much thanks to a lunch time conversation with my favorite person yesterday. i believe noodles cure all.

secretly, i am over it. but sometimes it's nice to make people suffer. is that immature? i know intentionally causing suffering to other beings is all anti-buddha, but maybe i'm just tryin to introduce a little karma? maybe? also, causing this person suffering is not the only reason i have chosen to continue with my silent treatment. there have been so many situations where i thought i was over something quickly and it turns out i wasn't. i kinda like this person and would really like to continue having a friendship with them so i feel it would be best for me to wait and be 100% certain that i am ready to handle our friendship, given the new circumstances.

it's 11 p.m. and i am about to go to bed in the hopes that i can get up by 8 or 9 in order to get some studying done before work tomorrow. wish me luck.

oh, and happy new year. or something like that.