so that little chat left me feeling a little... i dunno what last night. not depressed. not angry. i guess the best way i can describe the feeling is to say that it made me feel like driving at night with my windows down blasting some dashboard confessional... emo to the core. but like bad high school emo. and that hug... it killed me. i hate that i let stuff like this get to me. i am an amazing person, i have so much going for myself and i should not let emotions get in the way. besides, one day i will find somebody who is smart enough to realize how great i am and person enough to do something about it.

so now that i have gotten that out, it's time to get back to me. in so many ways. there is no way i am going to let my job or dumb emotions stop me from doing all of the things i want and need to do with my life. it's time for my personal revolution. and i think for now it's going to start with actually gettting some homework done.